Re blog if you are the same or is going through the same thing

  When i was in elementary i was bullied and cried a lot and never told anyone. As i grow up it never stopped but i always looked to the bright side and faked my smiles. Even when i found out my one friend was cutting her self and her foster parents shipped her away. Even when my one friend sent me a text saying that she was going to kill herself luckily her mother was called about it and she got to her in time. And when my best friend called me saying she need help because she cut her self. I only have one true friend that will not leave me over time but i’m afraid of losing her. i hide be hide a smiley everyday of my life and i just want to cry but i can’t. My life is school and work and i just want it to change but i know it won’t. I hate being told by people that it gets better i just want to cry! If this sounds like something you are going through re blog it so i know i’m not the only one who has to deal with this hell.